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Born on March 17, 1969
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Last seen on August 1, 1977
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My Dearest Jules,
It has been 34 years since we lost each other. Not a day went by that I didn't long for you. You were my best friend! You brought happiness to a 12 year old girl going through the awkward pre-teen and teen years.
I didn't know how to go on without you after I lost you. What I did do was bury you deep down in my soul and then I gave up my love and passion for horses. I survived, but at a cost! I deeply mourned for you for the next 24 years. I tried to fill that hole in my heart that you left, with marriage, children and dogs. But that hole and ache never were filled.
Then in 2001 I received a horse as a gift. The pain of memories lost was terrifying and excruciating! My guilt was now raw once again. But as I re-entered the horse world once again, a wonderful thing happened along the way. My heart opened up, the tears flowed and my heart began to heal. I began to feel whole again.
But, I still had an unfinished task to complete - to mourn you, my sweet baby!! So I went and found the pictures I did save and I introduced you to my family and friends, human and equine. I have spent the last 34 years crying for you, but now I am beginning to heal and to forgive myself. I ask you to forgive me and understand my mistakes as a child and to know that my love for you was unquestionable.
You taught me so much! I see you in Quincy and I know you are here with me every day. I know you were the force behind the gift! I know you are in Heaven with the people who love you and I know that Diablo has found you by now. You both are forever in my heart!! I love you now and forever!
Your Loving Mom,
Maryanne
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Jules Rubeous
